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Frosty scene outside

Brings pleasant glint to my eye.

Satisfying work.

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Written for Ronovan’s Haiku challenge using words “frost” and “glint”

Image: Picture, my window to my back yard.

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A SINNER’S MISERY

I came upon this writing while going through a family scrapbook. I think it is worth a share to others. I have told some members of the writer’s family that I would post it for those who would like to see. It was a long time ago; my mother has written circa 1950 on the envelope. The writer was my great uncle and I will be 87 this week. That’s way back there. He rues the drinking which came between him and his wife. I don’t know whether he overcame his drinking habit. But he remarried, and had more children with whom I am just now beginning an acquaintance via FB. Maybe one of them can tell me whether he beat the drinking habit. I hope so. I have laid paper clips by the paper so you can see what tiny writing. The paper was 2 x 3 1/2 inches.

A SINNER’S MISERY

Oh God, have mercy on a sinner who is too weak, and doesn’t have strength to change his ways. Until he has lost all in this world that is, or was worth living for. I guess its too late now, but it isn’t too late to change my ways.

I have been a coward, a sinner. I have prayed for strength, but my prayers were unanswered, and Satan stepped in and told me a Sinners best friend is the bottle and the Devil. They stayed with me. Satan said, “Go on” while I listened to him, an angel was saying “Fred, don’t do it.” That angel was my own dear wife.

I killed all the love she had for me, for I stood by the Devil and he stood by me. He’d say, “Come have another drink,” and with tears in my eyes I would sometimes think “Why be a coward.” Then satan would say “Come on have some more whiskey/booze. You can’t lose.”

Then I would drive faster and still think it safe, fifty-five and sixty was my speed, I know, when my left wheel hit a bank of snow. Two times I turned over, both times by myself. “No” Satan was with me. I remember quite well. For, he had just said, “Fred, give her hell. The pickup is too slow. You can make sixty and get on ahead.”

Well I was half-past him, when he cut in on me, That’s when I had to take the snowbank, you see. Two men and one girl were in that pickup, turned upside down.

They were drunk. Well what about me? Well, I’ll make one more round, with the bottle by my side, and then I’ll change my ways, and with a preachers pride. And to satan and whisky I’ll say, farewell. For no man wants to dwell in hell.

Then my darling wife may sometime see, it was satan and whisky and not just me. O God, do be kind to the darling of mine, that I caused so miuch sorrow while I was still blind.

The most perfect man can say with a sigh, “no man is without sin not even I.

If God would grant me fifty more years of life. I’d say, instead, just give me two with my wife.

My life work seems ended and when I think why, tears very often come to my eyes, and I cry. I have fought many battles but this is the worst, To think, how I’m frowned on and cursed.

I have promised to do, the best I can do. But they all seem to say, “You Liar, You.”

by Fred

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FINDING BEAUTY IN UNEXPECTED PLACES, part 2

After Betty died, Jake gave me a stack of his writings.  I was shocked at this creative side of him.  And I was surprised that he was sober and off the couch enough to produce such writings.  I’m typing as Jake typed them in all caps on a manual typewriter.  Bad spelling but phonetically close.  I’m happy to say I no longer feel superior to Jake. He had issues I never had. All I ever had was given to me by God – country, church, friends, teachers, family, people like Jake and Betty. Names have been changed.

A LETTER TO HEAVEN,  WRITEN BY JAKE

DEAR BETTY LOU

ONLY GOD IN HEAVEN NOS HOW MUCH I LOVE YOU

AND LITTLEDARLING GOD IN HEVEN NOS I LOVE YOU SO

AND HE NOS HOW MUCH IT BROK MY HEART TO HAFT TO LET YOU GO

MOM LITTLE TOMMY KNOS THAT YOU AR GONE BUT HE DON’T UNDERSTAND WHY

SO HE ASKS ME EVER NIGHT FOR YOU AND HE HUGES ME AND CRY

SO MOM IF YOU CAN LOOK DOWN FROM HEVEN AND SEE A OLD MAN AND A LITTLE BOY THAT IS SAD AND BLUE

MOM THAT IS ME AND LITTLE TOMMY WITHOUT YOU

MOM WE MADE A VOW FORTY ONE A GODEATH O WE PART

AND MOM WE KEEP OUR VOW FOR WE NEW EACH OTHERS HART

MOM WE HAVE A LOVE FOR EACH OTHER THAT WILL NEVER END

AND SUM DAY IN HEVEN OUR NEW LIFE WILL BEGIN

MOM WHILE YOU WAS ON WITH ME HERE ON ARTH I COULDEN NOT GIVE YOU A HOME WITH CHYSTAL SHANDLERS AND BIG BAY WENDER PAINDS

BUT WE ALL WAYS HAD A LITTLE HOME THAT SHALTERED US AND OUR CHILDRERN FROM THE COLD AND RAIN

MOM I NO THAT YOUR LITTLE BODY LAYS IN A COLD DARK GRAVE

BUT OUIR LOERD WILL RAISE IT UP FOR HE HAS HELING IN HIS WING

This is about half of Jake’s letter.  He ends with this couplet.

AND MOM WE WILL WALK HAND TO HAND THROUGH OUT GODS LAND

AND HE WILL TAKE US TO A CITY OF FOUR SQUAR

AND ALL OF OUR FRENDS AND LOVE ONES WILL BE WITH US UP THERE.

Jake also wrote many poems inspired by the Bible.  A bit of one follows:

THE WOMAN FROM SAMARIA

JESUS THEREFORE BEING WEARIED WITH HIS JOURNEY HE SET UPON JOBS WELL

AND THE WOMAN FROM SAMARIA COME TO DRAW WATER AND OUR LORD HAD A GRATE MESIG TO TEAL

HE TOLD HER OF A WELL OF WATER SPRINGING UP IN TO EVER LASTING LIFE

AND HE SENT HER BACK DOWN TO SAMARIA AND SHE LED MENEY SOLDS TO CHRST.

AND HE TOLD THEM THAT GOD IS NOT A SPITOR OF PERISONS AND IT MAKS NO DEFRINCE IF YOU AR A SAMARIA OR A JUE GOD IS SPIRIT AND HE LOVES YOU

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This will probably be read my some local people who will recognize Betty, Jake, and Tommy. If so, they will be happy to know more about how things turned out for this family. I was given permission to use these writings I wanted to. Most of them I gave back to one of the sons.

Remembering them bring tears as I rejoice in the Love of Jesus for them and for their victory over this earth. Jake’s love. I wonder if the Lord has let Jake mine out some “crystal chandeliers” and install a “big bay window pain” for Betty. Victory!

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FINDING BEAUTY IN UNEXPECTED PLACES, part 1

Betty and Tommy walked into our church one Sunday many years ago.  Tommy was a special needs child a young teen. I loved doing visitation so I made a visit to their home.  There on the couch lay Jake, obviously in a hangover.  During many visits, I would find him in the same place and the same condition. 

Do you ever feel superior?  How about when you see a redneck’s cracker box trailer?  Or when you see a car standing on cinder blocks?  Seeing teens with pants dragging?  Or a obese couch potato?  Three rooms decorated with sea shells?

Betty and Jake’s home was neat and the yard was uncluttered. The rooms were very small but orderly. They did not appear to be deprived of necessities.

I did love those people and I visited them a lot doing a few helpful things like taking Betty to the doctor.  She had cancer.  She cooked the most delicious fried potatoes and often had them cooking when I came in. 

She lost the cancer battle.  She had three adult children, two sons and one daughter.  Her family asked me to sing “Where Roses Never Fade” as one son played the guitar.  Tommy remained with Jake, at least for a short time. I don’t know how long.

I continued to visit Jake a few times.  God put compassion in my heart for him.  What caused Jake to hit the bottle?  What if someone had offered help earlier?  What if? 

I ask myself “what if.” 

What if my parents had not decided to drive me the fourteen miles to catch the bus to go to high school?

What if my daddy had not paid my college bill up front?

What if my first boss had not had a heart of gold?

What if I had had polio?

What if my mom had died when I was six?

There came a time when Jake was gone.  I called his son, who told me that his dad had got off the alcohol and he believed he had made things right with the Lord at the end. 

That’s good.

(follow Jake’s story next time)

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AFRAID OF THE VACCINE?

You don’t trust the vaccine because it was done so “speedily?” Others have taken years? Yes, Pres. Trump put that on front burner, the budget was sky high, the pressure for competition between pharmaceuticals – and nations – tremendous. The red tape was cut. It was developed with efficiency that hasn’t happened in a government project ever before! Give him credit and take the vaccine if that is your only reason. It is a lesson that proves government can work if you have someone – President Trump – who knows how to work it.

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I wrote this a couple weeks ago. Been hanging on to it. Now it is obsolete because Nancy just proved something could be done faster! Impeachment in one day!

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TONGUE IN CHEEK CHURCH CRITIQUE

Oh, dear, January is half over and nobody has asked my advice for a 2021 theme for their church. I so much wanted to be consulted! I was all ready to say – let’s blaze new trails and go to something like “repent and be baptized” or “trust and obey” or “stand up and walk straight” or “confess your sins and make restoration.” Maybe even “choose Jesus” – throw his name into an unexpected place.

Well, there’s always next year. But if any of you know a church that has leanin’s toward the above suggestions, please let me know.

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Now on a serious note, it is time for the church to do what church is called to do which is closer to my above suggestions than “live big,” “have a blast.” and “come and be blessed.”

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A GIFT OF LIGHT

“Hop in, honey,” said Laura, before driving away.

“Thanks, all’s good.” Cassie answered confidently.

Feeling an empty pocket, she remembered her key and money pouch on the music stand.

Fighting panic, she went to a side door and breathed a sign of relief to find it unlocked. The darkness was overwhelming as she maneuvered the hall from the side door. The stage lit up suddenly. She followed it to her music rack.

Relief became panic as she realized she wasn’t alone. Heart pounding, she stumbled back outside. Thankful but inquisitive, she left remembering “don’t look a gift horse in the mouth.”

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Written for rochelle’s 100 word Picture Prompt challenge, Friday Fictioneers https://rochellewisoff.com/

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THE PEOPLE DEMANDED A KING

Many of my friends and me have a hard time when we do not see prayers answered in the way we think they should be. We say we believe God loves us and will work in our favor but we SEE no results that seem Godly. Why would he allow a new administration who will allow more pre-born babies to be murdered? As well as other evil acts as we see them. We prayed.

From what I see, God allows the will of man to determine what happens to one’s culture and government in almost all circumstances. Free will.

I Samuel 8 relates how the people of Israel decided they did not want to have God lead them through his prophets. They said, “Give us a king to lead us.” After some debate between Samuel, the people, and the Lord, God said to Samuel “okay, tell them they can have a king.” Then he predicted what they would have to live with under the leadership of a king, as follows:

11He said, “This will be the procedure of the king who will reign over you: he will take your sons and place them for himself in his chariots and among his horsemen and they will run before his chariots. 12“He will appoint for himself commanders of thousands and of fifties, and some to do his plowing and to reap his harvest and to make his weapons of war and equipment for his chariots. 13“He will also take your daughters for perfumers and cooks and bakers. 14“He will take the best of your fields and your vineyards and your olive groves and give them to his servants. 15“He will take a tenth of your seed and of your vineyards and give to his officers and to his servants. 16“He will also take your male servants and your female servants and your best young men and your donkeys and use them for his work. 17“He will take a tenth of your flocks, and you yourselves will become his servants. 18“Then you will cry out in that day because of your king whom you have chosen for yourselves, but the LORD will not answer you in that day.”

We do not always get what God knows is best for us. Sometimes He lets us have what we (the population) demand. Especially when his minister’s pray in the name of a monotheistic god of many names and faiths. God says (my interpretation) “Go ahead and have any god you want, but that is the god you will be praying to. You’ll see how he answers your prayers.” and in Isaiah 45:20b “Ignorant are those who carry about idols of wood, who pray to gods that cannot save.”

America is getting the administration it demanded. She will pay the price for it. The price is big government (vs 11-13), taxes (15 & 17), socialism (14). Seems God thinks 10% taxes was too much! Everything here revolves around the king/government. And God has pretty much been “kicked out.”

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WE DO NOT WIN BY THE “MIGHT OF OUR HORSES”

While being stoned Stephen, being like Jesus, prayed, “Lord Jesus, receive my spirit.” Then he fell on his knees and cried out, “Lord, do not hold this sin against them.” (Acts 7:59) I hear of the martyrs of our day. I pray “Lord, be with them as you were with Stephen, let them see your glory, let them see you, Jesus, let them fall asleep with forgiveness in their hearts.” (Verses 54-57)

And I remember I am also commanded to pray for the enemies. We do not win by cunning craftiness or the “might of our horses” but by the Spirit of God.

I marvel at the amazing grace of Jesus who can make an Apostle Paul out of Saul, the Believers enemy of his day! (Acts 8:1) “And Saul approved of their killing him (Stephen).”

Prayer: “God, be merciful to the persecutors as well as the persecuted! And, Lord, reveal your glory to the heathen world. Lord, give us bold, wise, and Spirit-filled leaders in families, churches, and government. Make some Apostle Pauls out of sinful Sauls.”

Sometimes I say I’m speaking my words, not Gods; today I’m speaking God’s words, not mine.

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WRITING A LETTER IS HARD TO DO

Dear Dad:

Surprised to hear from me, Steve here? Been a long time. It is time for us to settle our differences. You were wrong about that…

I wonder where the stamps are.

Dad, I have harbored …

Post-it notes. Scissors. Staples. Paper clips.

bad feelings over the years the guilt which you bad feelings about ….

Pens, pencils, erasers.

I want to apologize but you …..

Scotch Tape. Story ideas.

You misunderstood. I did not…

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Wife: Did you write the letter?

Steve: Not quite, but the desk is organized.

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PHOTO PROMPT @ Jan Wayne Fields

One hundred word story written for Rochelle’s picture prompt.

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