I went to sleep after having arrived at a decision. It was perfect. I hadn’t had to plan to get my revenge. It had just dropped in my lap. All I had to do was ask a question. Just appear dumb – that wouldn’t be hard. I had a right to the answer. The answer would expose a wrong doer. Ah, how simple! What justice!

At this point you may be anticipating a tale of how God straightened me out. Did He give me a foreboding sense of evil? Did He cause a great distress in my spirit?
Did He chastise me with a terrific headache? Did I get a telephone call saying my child was in a car wreck? Did I get laryngitis so I couldn’t ask the question?

Who could ever guess that God disciplined me with amazing grace and boundless love? Yes, the way an adoring and adored father would want to discipline his child. He gave me a dream. This was the dream: I stepped into a large room where others were worshiping God. Immediately I began worshiping in another language. I seemed to be in a trance for a time. There was not much in the way of visual impact except for black and white scenes which made an impression but meant nothing to me. I can’t describe the all-consuming, overwhelming emotion. (Even now as I write, tears flow.) Still dreaming, I awoke from the trance with great racking painless sobs of sorrow that I was leaving such a state of worship. The dream was over but I did not awaken physically for the rest of the night.

When morning came, I awoke with this chorus (composed by Lanny Wolfe):
I love Him too much to fail Him now
Too much to break my vow.
For I promised the Lord that I would make it somehow.
Oh, I love Him too much,
Yes, I love Him too much to fail Him now.

And with this scripture: Behold, I set before you Life and Death, choose Life.

There is no Super Man, Wonder Woman ending to this story. Will the wrong doer be exposed? I don’t know. Will good triumph over evil? I don’t know. Will I be proven right? I don’t know. Do I want my way, or Life? I want Life. Do I find it easy to give up my way? No. I still think my plan would be a huge satisfaction – but, I love Him too much to fail Him now, too much to break my vow. I submit to my father’s plan. What is that? I don’t know.

I Corinthians 10:13 There hath no temptation taken you but such as is common to man: but God is faithful, who will not suffer you to be tempted above that ye are able; but will with the temptation also make a way to escape, that ye may be able to bear it.

Prompt @Krista Sweet Dreams What is the best dream you’ve ever had? Recount it for us in all its ethereal glory.

About oneta hayes

ABOUT ME Hello. To various folks I am Neat’nee, Mom, Grandma Neta, Gramma, Aunt Neta, Aunt Noni, Aunt Neno, and Aunt Neto (lots of varieties from little nieces and nephews). To some I’m more like “Didn’t you used to be my teacher?” or “Don’t I know you from someplace?” To you, perhaps, I am a Fellow Blogger. Not “fellow” like a male or a guy, but “fellow” like a companion or an adventurer. I would choose to be Grandma Blogger, and have you pull up a chair, my website before you, while I tell you of some days of yore. I have experienced life much differently than most of you. It was and is a good life. I hope to share nuggets of appreciation for those who have gone before me and those who come after me. By necessity you are among those who come after me and I will tell you of those who came before. Once upon a time in a little house on a prairie - oops, change that lest I commit plagiarism - and change that “house on the prairie” to “dugout on the prairie.” So my story begins...
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8 Responses to SUBMISSION

  1. Roni says:

    How wonderful to be involved in and surrounded by such a state of worship. It just takes my breath away. And doesn’t it make the difficulties of our lives seem so unimportant. Oh, if we could just remain in that kind of worship forever! I look forward to the time when that will be our daily reality. Forever, eternally, in worship of our Lord. Thank you for sharing your dream and giving me clarity and hope.

  2. I enjoyed your submission. It is a reminder that we are divine and having a natural/human experience. The most important part, for me, was SUBMISSION. Because we love HIM more than being proven right, validated, or apologized to, we submit to living divinely. Knowing that nothing happens to us by chance but He knows and that is most important. That will enable us to experience the divine worship that you so wonderfully shared with us! Peace and blessings!

    • oneta hayes says:

      Lady Summerset, thank you for letting me know how you also identify with my experience. We do have to submit at times without knowing how the situation will turn out but always knowing we are safe to take “a chance” with God. He will not fail.

  3. oneta hayes says:

    Wonderful to have you identify with my experience. I am very busy with family matters this week, but I am writing something to you about the versatile blogger award. I’ll post it when I can.

  4. dawnlizjones says:

    Beautiful. So what you’re also telling me is that it doesn’t necessarily get any easier to forgive and release to God simply because we get older. Bummer. And yet even in that I will depend on His grace. What a wonderful post you shared. Thank you.

  5. oneta hayes says:

    dawn, for me life has had plenty of occasions for the big “I” factor to show up in my life! However, regarding whether things get easier with age, yes. For one thing a Christian life really does have victories to build upon. A lot of bad effects from a patterned life of sin also do lighten, sometimes even go away! I think I will go a little further with this subject in a few days, as I publish my post and page called Jehovah-MacKeddish. Holiness is a victory for us through him. But sorry to disappoint, being eighty didn’t free me completely from ME. Maybe you will do better!

  6. Faye says:

    Was this a dream response to a prompted assignment? Or something from the past that triggered a dream response. Interesting! what you said is so true…..age does not automatically free us from ME or self focus. How amazing indeed is Grace. All of life the challenges and even failures yet we can be ‘born’ again and again. Day by day and year by year being transformed into His Image. Glad to read your journey and thoughts.

  7. oneta hayes says:

    Faye, this dream occurred about ten years ago when I was employed. The circumstances were real and the dream did stop me from what I have described. At this point I know the outcome. I did not win, but the victory over the temptation was “win” enough. I had written/recorded the incident before I knew the outcome. One of those things I had stored in my files. I remembered it and posted it as a result of a prompt from WordPress, maybe Michele W. I’m not sure.

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