INNOCENTS IN HELL? NEVER! (Part 2)

One’s experience will never surpass scripture for truth; however, it might be significant as a  possible revelation to a truth, if it agrees with the scriptures.  So I’m going to tell you my “sins” as best I can remember them as a child.  Not that there were not more of them, but I’m not writing a diary.  Just giving you examples of my progression into what I think became sin against God.  If you know about David’s sin with Bathsheba and understand his cry in Psalm 51, “against you (God) and you only have I sinned.”  We know he sinned by adultery and murder against his loyal friend, but the ultimate despair was because he sinned against God.

When I was small, probably about four, I was at my aunt’s home in a room alone.  As a curious child, I opened a sewing machine drawer and there was a package of gum.  I took a stick.  I don’t know whether or not I chewed it.  If I did, I must not have been asked about where I got it.  Maybe I hid it.  Whatever happened, that is my first memory of doing wrong.

The next thing I will tell about must have happened after I started to school.  I have no idea where I picked up dirty words; maybe from kids at school.  Anyway I remember going to the outhouse and muttering those words aloud, but I’m sure it was not loud enough to be heard outside that five by six foot outhouse.  I definitely did not heat up the airwaves.  And just so you know, those words were nothing like the vulgar words used now.  They were more like heck, hell, gee, or darn.  Maybe they got a little worse, but my “obscene” vocabulary was very limited.  In my mind, however, I was pushing the limits.  I stress, “in my mind.”  That is significant in the route to rebellion against God.

Sometime around nine or so I remember having thoughts that if written down could have made me a best seller!  Where did such thoughts come from?  There was no filth in my Christian home—not in the form of people, talk, jokes, radio, magazines, or anything I can think of.  All my people were Christians who believed salvation made you “walk right and talk right” and they believed sanctification even removed the desire to sin.  And they lived what they taught.

Follow me through the progression of these “sins.”

When I took the gum, my conscience hurt me.  I don’t remember being afraid of a spanking or anything like that, but I guess I could say I was ashamed of my behavior.  I did know it was wrong.

About saying the dirty words.   Did my conscience hurt me?  I don’t think so but you can bet I did not let my mom know about it.  I feared displeasing her.  I only remember one spanking she gave me, but she had a way that forbade any crossing her authority!  But as I said above, I recognized that I was pushing the limits in my behavior.

The dirty words and ugly thoughts happened about the same time, but I consider the thoughts a more serious issue.  From thoughts come actions.  Fortunately the thoughts did not turn to actions.  I’m so thankful for good parents, for my Christian roots.  Sometime about that age I must have recognized my ugliness before God, no one else knew.  But I was guilty.  Sin was taking a hold on me.

Through all these years I was taught about Jesus and that he loved me.  I was rooted in John 3:16.  I do not remember when those prayers took hold with real understanding that Jesus had saved me.  But it had to have happened; I knew enough to know I must be a Christian before I joined the church, which I did at ten years old.    All the above “sins” happened before that.  Being saved and joining the church did not make an angel out of me, but I was different.  I think my mom still combed my hair, and popped the top of my head with the comb when I whined!  She probably thought I should trust her judgment about how hard to pull to get the tangles out.

Admittedly I feel like that when combing others’ hair.  I might be wrong, but mom probably wasn’t wrong very often, and I might add God never is—you probably better trust his warnings while they are still “pops on the head.”  Suffering God’s wrath will not be pleasant.  And I think nothing perplexes him more than one rejecting the great suffering of his Son.

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ABOUT ME Hello. To various folks I am Neat’nee, Mom, Grandma Neta, Gramma, Aunt Neta, Aunt Noni, Aunt Neno, and Aunt Neto (lots of varieties from little nieces and nephews). To some I’m more like “Didn’t you used to be my teacher?” or “Don’t I know you from someplace?” To you, perhaps, I am a Fellow Blogger. Not “fellow” like a male or a guy, but “fellow” like a companion or an adventurer. I would choose to be Grandma Blogger, and have you pull up a chair, my website before you, while I tell you of some days of yore. I have experienced life much differently than most of you. It was and is a good life. I hope to share nuggets of appreciation for those who have gone before me and those who come after me. By necessity you are among those who come after me and I will tell you of those who came before. Once upon a time in a little house on a prairie - oops, change that lest I commit plagiarism - and change that “house on the prairie” to “dugout on the prairie.” So my story begins...
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7 Responses to INNOCENTS IN HELL? NEVER! (Part 2)

  1. Deborah Ann says:

    Oh, this did indeed hit home and brought up memories for me of my childhood. I was brought up with “little sins” and “white lies” and in my young mind thought anything else was the real deal sinful stuff! Knowing what i know now all sin is a big deal and there isn’t anything little or white about them! Only the blood of Jesus can cleanse us from the effect sin has on our souls. ~ Blessings ~

  2. Debbie L says:

    Oh this does fit nicely with my own testimony shared here: https://lifetimeofforgiveness.wordpress.com/2016/02/25/the-enemy-of-our-faith/
    This is a great way to share. Funny, it was at age 9 when I realized clearly I was a sinner and need the forgiveness of my sins. But I can’t remember like young progression of my sins-probably not much different from yours. My dad was an alcoholic so I don’t remember much from those years. I think maybe God’s way of protecting my love for my earthly dad as I was a daddy’s girl!

    • oneta hayes says:

      Yes, Debbie, I did read that. That is what resonated with me. We must have been about the same age when we understood the difference in praying “Come into My Heart” at four and “come into my heart” at nine. Although I do not remember which of those times was really my salvation experience, I do know I meant it each time I prayed or sang it.

  3. Dawn Marie says:

    “Nothing hurts God more than rejecting His son.” And yet He still prays: “Father, forgive them for they know not what they do.” Oh, how I love Him! (And you 😘)

  4. oneta hayes says:

    Such compassion from such a loving Triune God. I tend to get upset with people who accuse him falsely! But God never told me to come to his defense, did he? He continues to love, give grace and mercy, and beckon all who will to follow him. I’m thankful for you, dear.

  5. Faye says:

    Mercy and Grace often overlooked when we assess the awesome wonder of our Lord. Because He is Triune – The Spirit’s main responsibility is to point our lives always to the Saviour and His Sacrifice. My struggles all through childhood to try to put a human man into my heart. (Impossible). I was an adult before I knew absolutely He (God is Spirit) could live in me. It brings mercy and grace into perspective. He passionately beckons indeed all to follow the Shepherd.

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