My blogging experience has brought me a bit of a quandary that I have been thinking about, that is, the scripture regarding “not letting your left hand know what your hand does,” Jesus’ commands to several persons he touched to “go and not to tell” and the scripture about doing things publicly lest we lose our reward in Heaven.
The reason these scriptures trouble me is because I have had many delightful and rewarding experiences in things “of the spirit.” I want to share these experiences. I don’t want to die without having shared these experiences. So what to do?
In the past some churches had “testimony” services. Some funny like “Praise the Lord I’ve been in bed with the doctor all week but I’m fine now..” But I learned much from older people who had wonderful relationship with Jesus and I knew they were genuine even if they were funny.
I have been inspired by great men of the past who have left testimonies of the Lord’s ministry through them. For example, Smith Wigglesworth, who lived in the late 1800’s and early 1900’s was a simple man, a plumber. He tells that one night, he is awakened. he sits up, looks around and sees the devil, and says to him, “Oh, it’s just you.” and promptly goes back to sleep!!! I’m glad he told that story.
There is a story I have heard from far back in my childhood about my Uncle Orcie Barler. I’m lacking details. I asked my aunt about it. I think it concerned a time when Uncle Orcie’s child was sick. They lived in the country. A man appeared ar the door, came in and – I guess – prayed for the child. Then he disappeared walking across the meadow. I wish Uncle Orcie would have left that testimony to his descendents. Who was the man? Some say he was an angel.
I’ll share a personal story. About thirty-five years ago, there was a young couple in our church who were going to be missionaries. My bank account was nil but I had a five dollar bill. I felt a “spiritual” nudge to give it to Kathy, but I was hesitant to do so. Five dollars? That’s just embarrassing! But I humbled myself and gave it to her. The next morning I found a check lying on the floor in the hall. It was made out for $20.00, dated about three or four months previously, signed by me, with the payee line empty! I looked back at my bank stub and it had been deducted from my account, no payee entered! It was lying in front of a bookcase that held encyclopedias. Nothing else in the hall except pictures on the wall. Why had I written that check and where did it appear from? Sammy and I both had jobs, so our need was not so great, I knew checks would be coming. I believe it was just a confirmation from the Lord because I had obeyed him the night before. But I did go ahead and cash the check, giving me a bit in the pocket right then.
Okay, I ask you. I do not often tell this story because…. Well, why because?
I’m inclined to think our reticence to tell these kinds of stories is a devil’s lie to keep us quiet. In Revelations we are told that some overcame Satan by the Word and by the word of their testimony.
Let’s look further at the scripture about losing our reward. It says, “Watch out! Don’t do your good deeds publicly, to be admired by others, for you will lose the reward from your Father in heaven.”
Consider the motivation. If it is to influence others for good and to bring glory to God, go for it. Tell your story. Maybe it won’t be as impressive as Smith Wigglesworth, but it will be a legacy to inspire someone long after you have gone. Anyway if it was a good experience for me, it is probably worth telling. Tell your story. Leave a legacy, not just an inheritance!