I went to sleep after having arrived at a decision. It was perfect. I hadn’t had to plan to get my revenge. It had just dropped in my lap. All I had to do was ask a question. Just appear dumb – that wouldn’t be hard. I had a right to the answer. The answer would expose a wrong doer. Ah, how simple! What justice!

At this point you may be anticipating a tale of how God straightened me out. Did He give me a foreboding sense of evil? Did He cause a great distress in my spirit?
Did He chastise me with a terrific headache? Did I get a telephone call saying my child was in a car wreck? Did I get laryngitis so I couldn’t ask the question?

Who could ever guess that God disciplined me with amazing grace and boundless love? Yes, the way an adoring and adored father would want to discipline his child. He gave me a dream. This was the dream: I stepped into a large room where others were worshiping God. Immediately I began worshiping in another language. I seemed to be in a trance for a time. There was not much in the way of visual impact except for black and white scenes which made an impression but meant nothing to me. I can’t describe the all-consuming, overwhelming emotion. (Even now as I write, tears flow.) Still dreaming, I awoke from the trance with great racking painless sobs of sorrow that I was leaving such a state of worship. The dream was over but I did not awaken physically for the rest of the night.

When morning came, I awoke with this chorus (composed by Lanny Wolfe):
I love Him too much to fail Him now
Too much to break my vow.
For I promised the Lord that I would make it somehow.
Oh, I love Him too much,
Yes, I love Him too much to fail Him now.

And with this scripture: Behold, I set before you Life and Death, choose Life.

There is no Super Man, Wonder Woman ending to this story. Will the wrong doer be exposed? I don’t know. Will good triumph over evil? I don’t know. Will I be proven right? I don’t know. Do I want my way, or Life? I want Life. Do I find it easy to give up my way? No. I still think my plan would be a huge satisfaction – but, I love Him too much to fail Him now, too much to break my vow. I submit to my father’s plan. What is that? I don’t know.


That was a time the Lord spoke to me in a dream.  The incident happened about ten years ago when I was employed and I was having some bad issues with a co-worker.  I wrote in a journal at that time.  That’s the reason I can give such details about the dream even though it was long ago.  —- And since it was long ago, I do know how the situation turned out.  We both left.  But we left as friends – sort of :D.  At least I didn’t embarrass myself or my Lord.


About oneta hayes

ABOUT ME Hello. To various folks I am Neat’nee, Mom, Grandma Neta, Gramma, Aunt Neta, Aunt Noni, Aunt Neno, and Aunt Neto (lots of varieties from little nieces and nephews). To some I’m more like “Didn’t you used to be my teacher?” or “Don’t I know you from someplace?” To you, perhaps, I am a Fellow Blogger. Not “fellow” like a male or a guy, but “fellow” like a companion or an adventurer. I would choose to be Grandma Blogger, and have you pull up a chair, my website before you, while I tell you of some days of yore. I have experienced life much differently than most of you. It was and is a good life. I hope to share nuggets of appreciation for those who have gone before me and those who come after me. By necessity you are among those who come after me and I will tell you of those who came before. Once upon a time in a little house on a prairie - oops, change that lest I commit plagiarism - and change that “house on the prairie” to “dugout on the prairie.” So my story begins...
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7 Responses to ‘TWEEN GOD AND ME – Dream

  1. dawnlizjones says:

    What a significant encounter with the Almighty God!! I know that forgiveness doesn’t mean you have to trust the one forgiven; even so, how did you forgive?

    • oneta hayes says:

      dawnliz, my niece on FB just asked me the same question. This was my response to her:
      “Lisa, a person on my blog just asked me about the forgiving part too. I don’t really know. I think in my case here, it was more like spats between sisters. If I had pursued my course, I probably would have got myself in a situation that demanded more in the way of forgiving. Fortunately I guess we loved and respected more than we had bitter feelings. I’m glad I have not had to ask for forgiveness every time I’ve wanted to be proved right in my life! ‘Cept for Sammy that hasn’t happened often. :D” (Dawn, Sammy, of course, is my husband. I’ve had to ask his forgiveness more than once!)

  2. Faye says:

    Great and very powerful truth you have given here. The dream enabled you to know your love for HIM more important than ‘exposing wrong’ and certainly than ‘justice’. This may never be known by you this side of eternity BUT your relationship, your heart, your actions are not tarnished by the experience. Forgiveness is God’s business in this instance as long as your heart is pure before God about you own actions. Great post to make folks ‘think’. Dawn Liz post above. the movie with that statement was certainly not portraying the TRUTH. Forgiveness is the greatest act of love in the world. Only God can bring forgiveness when the person effected would in the natural want revenge. Only God!

    • oneta hayes says:

      Isn’t there a song that says, “Only God can satisfy the soul?” I think so. It is the truth. Thank you, Faye. As always you are right on with your appreciation for truth.

  3. judyjourneys says:

    I think one of the Christian’s greatest tasks is not to rob God of His revenge, as put forth in Romans 12:19: “Do not take revenge, my dear friends, but leave room for God’s wrath, for it is written: ‘It is mine to avenge; I will repay,’ says the Lord.”

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