low self esteem

My life is a mal de coucou.  But I guard that secret as if it were a Golem’s Truth  As I portray nonchalance and strength, I have a parallel life which consists of a nervous desire to please.  On one hand I’m a social butterfly tending toward being a dazzling, dizzy Lizzy; on the other, I’m a scared, scarred wall flower.  My friends would be awestruck to see the real me – the one behind the background of smoke and mirrors.  Sometimes I want to let it all spill out.  I wonder, “Would they love me anyway?”



Use at least ten of these twelve words, may use alternate form, any order:  Background, Please, Awestruck, Tend, Parallel, Mal de coucou, Smoke, Spill, Nerve, Strong, Desire, Golem’s Truth

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Tag: Mindlovemisery’s Menagerie and Wordle


About oneta hayes

ABOUT ME Hello. To various folks I am Neat’nee, Mom, Grandma Neta, Gramma, Aunt Neta, Aunt Noni, Aunt Neno, and Aunt Neto (lots of varieties from little nieces and nephews). To some I’m more like “Didn’t you used to be my teacher?” or “Don’t I know you from someplace?” To you, perhaps, I am a Fellow Blogger. Not “fellow” like a male or a guy, but “fellow” like a companion or an adventurer. I would choose to be Grandma Blogger, and have you pull up a chair, my website before you, while I tell you of some days of yore. I have experienced life much differently than most of you. It was and is a good life. I hope to share nuggets of appreciation for those who have gone before me and those who come after me. By necessity you are among those who come after me and I will tell you of those who came before. Once upon a time in a little house on a prairie - oops, change that lest I commit plagiarism - and change that “house on the prairie” to “dugout on the prairie.” So my story begins...
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  1. Salvageable says:

    You have such a wonderful grasp of the inner dealings of the heart. J.

  2. Faye says:

    Interesting! Is this part of a writing challenge? Once upon a time I was part of a writer’s group. I loved word challenges. It doesn’t matter as salvageable said above inner dealings of the heart well expressed. Thank you.

  3. mandibelle16 says:

    Beautiful piece with wonderful descriptions. I want her to find what she needs.

    • oneta hayes says:

      Ir i hard to convince a teen that she is perfectly lovely even if she does not fit the scene.
      So much damage can be done to the young child as she grows up. I had the same problem with raising my sons through those years also.

  4. mandibelle16 says:

    Not only what she needs but acceptance for herself. That can be difficult to find.

  5. A lot of people worry far too much about what others would feel about them and if they would continue to love them if they showed their true selves. I think hiding behind smokes and mirrors must be tiring at the end of the day.

    • oneta hayes says:

      Must be most tiring to pretend an alternate personality. There is someone of all kinds who need to find and help each other. Thanks for commenting, Jacque.

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