Several years ago I wrote a paper called “Put Me In Remembrance,” which was I was inspired to do at the bidding of Isaiah 43:26 where God said, “Put me in remembrance…..”
God keeps record of my acts for him, but I cannot find that He keeps any record of what he does for me. Am I going to allow his wonderful acts to me to be unrecorded? I wish I had kept record. But this will be my attempt to “put him in remembrance” and let him know how very, very much he means to me. The paper is addressed to God.
To God: I affirm to you that my faith is in you as my healer; faith in my faith is nothing. Was that what happened that night so many years ago, when the baby died? After prayer for her my heart sang with rejoicing as I believed you had healed her.
She died.
Do you remember, Lord? She was born with cancer. I don’t know why I so sincerely and joyfully believed she had been healed. I had prayed. I thought the answer came from you; I thought you had healed her.
It was a blow when I found out she had died.
It shook me, but, you know, Lord, it really didn’t shake my faith in you; it just shook my faith in my faith. I can’t explain it. I only know that after that, I always knew that it didn’t matter what I felt like, you were still God and you would be God forevermore doing what is necessary for the good of your kingdom. So many things I don’t understand but as time has gone on I have seen why what happened might have happened. Overall though, I wish the baby had lived.
But I do know You are wise and good. You always know what is best.
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IB discussed this topic “faith in one’s faith” a couple days ago. Go there for more reading on this topic. https://insanitybytes2.wordpress.com/2021/04/20/faith-faith-and-faith/
Sweet aroma 
My deepest sympathy that it happened to you Oneta. GOD has plans, ways, and thoughts that we cannot perceived here on earth; we will only know when we talked to Him in Heaven someday when He comes again; you seeing your baby and me my parents. The good thing is your faith is strong. Blessings to you and your family!
Gersom, she was not my baby. She belonged to a sweet Christian couple who maintained their faith in the Lord through it all. You are right about the grand reunion we will have some day.
Oh, my apologies, Oneta. We are looking forward for it and JESUS’ return.
I like how you put this: “I affirm to you that my faith is in you as my healer; faith in my faith is nothing.”
That was the lesson I learned. Our faith must remain in Him whatever He determines. He is the One who sees all things through all time. Not I.
How incredibly painful to lose your beautiful baby to this horrible belief. I can’t even begin to imagine how painful that must have been. But I’m so glad your faith in the person of Jesus remained strong. Such an inspiring post.
The baby was in the hospital. I was home. Many were praying for the baby. I guess we all believed that God helps doctors and doctors help God. That was not a problem. The baby was not mine, but I was praying for her anyway. I guess I did not explain very well. Sorry. Thanks for the comment.
I believe in a God of the impossible. I know He is the Healer. Our beautiful first born child our daughter has M.N.D. Many have and are praying for her. We have to leave her completely in HIS HANDS. We believe in HIS Promises of eternity for human souls and the ultimate healing of ALL who believe in the Saviour. In the case of a baby His Arms are always open. Let us never stop believing for HEALINGS. .Let us PRAY.