Several years ago I wrote a paper called “Put Me In Remembrance,” which was I was inspired to do at the bidding of Isaiah 43:26 where God said, “Put me in remembrance…..”
God keeps record of my acts for him, but I cannot find that He keeps any record of what he does for me. Am I going to allow his wonderful acts to me to be unrecorded? I wish I had kept record. But this will be my attempt to “put him in remembrance” and let him know how very, very much he means to me. The paper is addressed to God.
To God: I affirm to you that my faith is in you as my healer; faith in my faith is nothing. Was that what happened that night so many years ago, when the baby died? After prayer for her my heart sang with rejoicing as I believed you had healed her.
Do you remember, Lord? She was born with cancer. I don’t know why I so sincerely and joyfully believed she had been healed. I had prayed. I thought the answer came from you; I thought you had healed her.
It was a blow when I found out she had died.
It shook me, but, you know, Lord, it really didn’t shake my faith in you; it just shook my faith in my faith. I can’t explain it. I only know that after that, I always knew that it didn’t matter what I felt like, you were still God and you would be God forevermore doing what is necessary for the good of your kingdom. So many things I don’t understand but as time has gone on I have seen why what happened might have happened. Overall though, I wish the baby had lived.
But I do know You are wise and good. You always know what is best.
IB discussed this topic “faith in one’s faith” a couple days ago. Go there for more reading on this topic. https://insanitybytes2.wordpress.com/2021/04/20/faith-faith-and-faith/